• cover of novel "Silence" by Julia Park Tracey

    A horse named Raven pulled me deep into this story, a historical tale set in Puritan-era New England where a woman named Silence is punished for expressing outsized emotions and must endure a year of not speaking.

    Of course I would gravitate to author Julia Park Tracey’s book. A while ago, I took up that subject myself in a fantasy short story titled The Exile’s Tale and published in the collection Imagination Fully Dilated. In my story, the women of a village are forbidden from speaking once they pass their child-bearing years. It’s not the wisest limitation, denying half of the most experienced community members their ability to share their wisdom.

    As in Tracey’s powerful rendering, at some point the men want the silenced women to speak up.

    Of course the women don’t. Not in my version. Not in Tracey’s.

    Tracey’s book captured me in a way that always delights me when it happens. I start reading, and the story is fine, the writing is good, and I continue because I want to know what happens. But a phone call, a knock on the door, a remembered task — any of those things can pull me away from a book that is simply good.

    In the best books, a turn happens. It could be anything, an ingenious plot twist, a surprising character development, a beguiling landscape. A shift occurs. Everyday reality drops away, sparking an intimacy between me and the text. At that point, it’s hard to put the book down.

    In the case of Silence, it happened for me on page 142. Don’t mistake me. I was fully enjoying the book before page 142. Then the character Silence takes a moment to stroke the face of the horse. She tickles Raven’s blaze, brushes back the forelock. Raven nickers and tries to nibble her sleeve. Then this sentence: “I lean down to pluck some grass to palm for her, and she takes it with whiskery lips and a saucy nodding of her head.”

    At that sentence, I quietly fell inside, and didn’t fully emerge until the last page.

    I’ve stopped trying to explain these moments to myself or others. I’m ensnared, not only by the tale, but also by the skill in the telling, where a small, arguably inconsequential moment is given its due by an author for whom there are, perhaps, no inconsequential moments.

    This book is rich in the daily-life moments of constrained women. Its plot engine runs on power dynamics in the era where witchery accusations could still be a death sentence, religious tolerance itself a sin. But, to turn an old phrase upside down, its angels are in its details.

  • An artist you’ll want to meet

    It’s whimsy, OK? But it’s more than that.

    We stumbled on Stan Peterson’s work by accident, when a road trip we planned didn’t pan out and we needed a new destination.

    So. We’re lying on a blanket under a shady tree in Spokane’s Riverfront Park (wonderful, surprising, must-be-visited). We’re bummed because we can’t proceed to Canada (a passport left-behind issue). And because we dig on the stoics, and the stoics advise going with the flow rather than getting all het up, we revise our plans as we listen to the Spokane River tumble over waterfalls nearby.

    Inevitably, we wind up the next day 300 miles away at the Maryhill Museum on the Washington side of the Columbia River, not far from Goldendale. If you don’t know the Maryhill, I both feel sad for your not-knowing and envy you the upcoming pleasure of discovery. Walking into the Maryhill for the first time is like reading a new and about-to-be beloved book. You’ll read it many times, but that first time is magical.

    And that’s where we found Portland artist Stan Peterson tinkering with his show titled Horse Play. We came upon the wood carvings with their muted color washings in the best possible way. You come around a corner and you see the horses in the little boat and you immediately think of singer Lyle Lovett’s If I Had a Boat song, with the delightful line: “Kiss my ass, I bought a boat and I’m going out to sea.” It’s amazing how often that is the correct response to life.

    Peterson’s carvings are whimsical, but muscled. The work feels certain of itself, completed. And it’s grounded in place: horses, river barges, pelicans, sturgeons, bluebirds. I fell in love right away. And then I checked his website and now, well, I’m a new fan.

    It’s instructive to meet the actual artist, and I’m glad we did. But I only remember one thing he said. Despite being a lifelong artist whose work sells in galleries, the Maryhill show is his first at an actual museum. He was excited as he said this — eyes bright, big smile. Like a kid at play.

    You can meet him, too. Peterson is giving a walk-through chat at 3 p.m. on Saturday Aug. 29. The museum cafe will be open and serving fresh salmon. (RSVP at the museum website). Since this is the closing walk-through it’ll be the last chance to see his work at the Maryhill.

    I might have to go back.

  • Dancing with Dael! What a joy.

    Nia dance instructor Dael Parsons gave me a gift, a method of being more fully myself. Her strategy — simply noticing what was happening with her students, then gently guiding — was what I needed.

    I walked into her dance class almost seven years ago. Newly retired, I had become the boss of all my hours. The first thing I wanted from retirement was a regular dance practice. I’d drifted into a few Nia classes with other instructors over the years. I felt it was special, different from other workouts, but I didn’t know why.

    I do now. Dael showed me the way. Nia, which I’ve written about many times, is about movement for joy, for pleasure, for health. It uses choreography and music, but Nia doesn’t care if you never quite master the steps. Nia wants you to be present for your whole self — brain, body, soul. It helped me get out of my brain, which is where a writer thinks the important stuff resides. This writer, anyway. For me the body was the thing carrying around the brain. A conveyance system. Because of Nia, I saw how silly that was.

    I came to dance with a private loathing of my body because of its failure to meet social norms. I couldn’t look at myself in the dance studio mirror. Dael’s way of teaching helped me past that. Seven years later, I have a dance practice I adore with sister dancers I’m delighted to see. I look at myself with joy, whether I’m half a step behind the beat or forgetting what’s coming next in the day’s routine, or simply leaping around in the space, despite the choreography, because my inner 12-year-old wants to.

    Dael created the psychological space within the studio and offered the deep wisdom of her own extensive experience, not just with dance but with anatomy, with the skeletal and muscular structures that we manage when we move to music.

    I started retirement with the bedrock need for a healthy body practice. Dael showed me the way.

    Why am I speaking in the past tense about this phenomenal teacher? Now she’s retiring. I get to dance with her three more times before she puts her shoes back on (in Nia we dance barefoot). I’m looking forward to each one of them.

    The Eugene area is blessed with other fine Nia instructors. I’ve danced with several and will continue dancing with them.

    But Dael will always be the embodiment of Nia practice, a north star I’ll never lose.