• Apple TV’s show Shrinking debuted its third season recently, and I hopped on that narrative train, watching the first two half-hour episodes. I liked this show when I stumbled on it last year, for its humor, but mainly because of its completely not-Oregon-winter vibe. People in a beautifully photographed upscale part of somewhere California. Sunny skies, backyard swimming pools, perfect yards. And there’s the unlikely office setting for the three protagonists: psychologists all.

    Not grim or dark, thank God. Before that I’d been watching Slow Horses whose grim darkness is only slightly elevated by the outlandishness of its grimmest darkest character. Shrinking was conceived and built by the same folks who brought us Ted Lasso, whose continued underlying theme — wrapped in great humor — is forgiveness. That’s not something Hollywood usually builds serial videos around. Shrinking is in that vein, but different.

    After watching, I found myself both drawn in yet also popped out of the story. I wondered what the critics were saying about it. They were saying a lot. Some found it too sweet, a soft and soapy confection. Others found the underlying narrative — the importance of connected, supportive friends — touching and important. And several mentioned the foul language liberally used throughout.

    In the current state of the world, I will take a confection where I find it. Human sweetness, friends and neighbors helping as best as their imperfect selves can, I’ll have a helping of that, please.

    To single out one of those sweet moments: A gay couple who are adopting a single woman’s infant in what appears to be an open-adoption process, decide unequivocally that they want to change their minds, close the door on contact with her after the baby is born. But then in the interaction with her where they plan to tell her this, they can’t bring themselves to do it. Because of who she is, the way she is. Because of who they are, the way they are. This little side story touched me. It’s how we make decisions in real life: announcing to ourselves that we absolutely will not do this or that thing only to shift gears midway.

    Because I am not a huge fan of the actor playing the protagonist, some of his scenes pop me out of the story. I’m no longer embedded in it. I’m just sitting there wondering if they could have found a more charismatic actor to play that part. But somehow, some way, the what-will-happen-next-ness of good storytelling pulls me back inside this fiction and when I come out at the end, I am uplifted.

    For people who don’t like seriously foul language, I don’t recommend this series. Nothing can shoot a person out of the joy of story immersion faster than language that deeply offends.

  • Since hiring Claude to help me do research, I feel two things. First if Claude were human, I would have fired him after his first big hallucinatory botch it was so egregious. Second, it’s now kind of entertaining to throw Claude a simple task and see how much of it he gets wrong. Claude, of course, is what Anthropic has called its artificial intelligence software. If I were naming this software I’d call it BDT for bullshit detector training software. I described my initial encounter with his fails here.

    Today I asked Claude to give me a list of publications or podcasts that might appeal to National Guard family members. The top of the list Claude kicked back was:

    Guard Family – A magazine specifically designed for National Guard families, covering deployment support, benefits, family programs, and resources

    I went searching for this publication and couldn’t find it, so I asked Claude: “Can you give your source for Guard Family? I’m not finding it online. Is there a possibility you hallucinated this magazine?”

    Here’s Claude’s answer: You’re absolutely right to call that out—I should search to verify this. Let me check what actually exists.Good catch—I did make an error. There isn’t a magazine called “Guard Family.”

    Then I said: Is there some way I can tell you in advance to do actual research instead of making things up?

    Then Claude said: That’s a really fair question, and I appreciate your directness. Honestly, the answer is: not really in a way that would guarantee I won’t make mistakes like that. You can ask me to search or verify things, and I should be doing that proactively for factual claims (especially specific publication names), but there’s no setting or instruction you can give me that will completely prevent me from occasionally stating something confidently that turns out to be wrong.

    Claude: verbose and unhelpful. I find this so reasuring. I perceive that AI will get drafted to fill jobs and people will get fired. Then, a couple weeks in, crying managers will be calling their fired employees and begging them to come back.

  • The book was waiting for me. It was a moment when you can’t help believing in fate.

    I’ve been compiling a list of books to discuss with fellow writers at a workshop I’m giving in June. I want a range of voices and genres, and woke up one morning in early January thinking to include Leslie Marmon Silko and her book Ceremony. Jumped up, went to the bookshelf where she lives at my house. She wasn’t there. I went to all my shelves. Not there. Not there. Not there.

    Damn. Maybe in a burst of purging, I let her go? Or loaned her out? Days passed. I forgot about it, pulled some other book from the shelf.

    Then we headed to San Francisco for a week of gawking around the big city, and I can’t visit without dropping into City Lights Bookstore, among my favorite of the independent shops (in Salt Lake City, it’s The King’s English, in Denver The Tattered Cover, in Seattle Elliott Bay Book Company). It’s as though someone is personally curating for me at City Lights.. Not huge like Portland’s Powells,which is lovable in its sprawling “we have everything!” way. City Lights is more “don’t worry, we got you.”

    I had no thought that morning for exactly what I wanted when we entered. So. Step in, turn right, pass some shelves, turn right again, all random, just saying hello to the bookstore, blink, and what is here in front of me? At eye level, Silko’s Ceremony. It’s as though City Lights is saying “welcome back, Susan.”

    A good hour browsing in the store that was founded in 1953 by poet, artist, activist, essayist Lawrence Ferlinghetti, reminded me how a well-curated bookstore can bring me to places I am surprised to learn that I want to go.

    Some unknown impulse drew me to the shelves of European authors. Once there, the book titled The Moon and the Bonfires by Cesare Pavese, an Italian novelist, caught my eye. I know nothing of Italian authors. But I will know a something or two shortly.

    Ferlinghetti, who also founded a publishing company, was charged in 1956 with publishing an obscene work: poet Allen GInsberg’s Howl. He was acquitted in that land-mark first-amendment case. It was sweet to be in his store, especially in this current period of American history. I loved a hand-scribbled sign above the shelves: “Free speech zone.” Was glad we wandered in on Thursday because Friday (Jan. 30), they shut their doors in solidarity with the anti-ICE shutdown.